beyond

monday, Dupleix

nothing could stop my bleeding eyes

this incredible downward spiral

where at each turn a hook stabs your heart 

to rip it to shreds

it beats harder and harder

pumping, thumping

faster

faster 

to escape

but where?

nothing to stop this freefall

as i fall

into a void

my void

my life 

expelled and spat out of our bubble

a punctured bubble

torn

ripped

slit

a scar that can't be healed

a deep breath

choke

like a newborn child whose first breath launches a spasm

a cough

a cry

i must let you breathe

i can't hurt you any more

i can't suffocated you any more

i can't drag you into the depths of my cowardice any more

i can't torture you, 

i can't feed your addiction any longer

play with your heart

play with your love

spike your life with pain

tease your hope

and what lies beyond ?

the vast ocean of solitude to cross

a universe of thoughts, meanderings and questions

images, pictures, colours and feelings

alone, 

alone

alone

Will ever get beyond you...