We've met in the white room three times now

in my mind, in my sleep

the floor is white, the walls are white, 

the sheet covering our us was white

there is no sound in the white room

there is no wind, no movement

all is so calm

her hip

her naked hip under the sheet

such a delicate curve to glide down

a slight shudder as my finger runs back up slowly the side of her body

a breath, just a breath

i look into her eyes

her eyes, her eyes, her eyes,

the fire that invites me into a maelstrom of feelings

so much love, so much power, so much warmth

how enthralling, how awsome

just a breath

just a bit louder

so much love between our eyes

still no sound

no movement

the white room 

my cocoon

my heart

my love

my love

my love

love

27-12-07

Benazir Bhutto was assasinated about an hour ago.

thought :

it is shocking in a democracy to see heads of state killed even if they're not clean, but how many heads of state have been killed buy our democracy ?

I did not take this photograph. It comes from The Guardian.

23-12-07

1 am.

cold

brisk

the sound of the waves is so soothing

as we walk down the path into the Hooper 

i realise that the missing solitary person is me

22-12-07

The Twilight Zone

day slides into night slowly

the light bulbs shine out and bring warmth

for some reason, the light in winter glows more that in the summer

21-12-07

caught between two worlds

caught between two lines

caught between two bodies

in the middle

two bodies that seem to touch on the horizon 

but they never will as long as you're in the middle

is that where indecision comes from ?

caught between the terrifying fantasy of infinite flight and 

the floating comfort of Mother nature's giant womb

19-12-2007

quantifying anything, especially danger

seems - to me at least - 

the best way 

to realise 

it's importance.

19-12-2007

eat meat

eat cows

now

the real problem right now is trying to figure out how to originally feed your

merry Xmas guests.

forget your turkey & foie gras

i think that right now i could handle a grilled fish on a beach,

sipping mojitos and counting the waves...

14-12-2007

angler rhymes with wanker

need i say more ?

13-12-2007

marillion

still the best band in the world

they don't change, but the crowd seems to get older...

8-12-2007

there's this place that's a buffer between two worlds.

it's a tunnel of relaxation between two hyperventilations.

A twilight zone, caught and squeezed between two worlds, 

night and day,

light and dark, 

reality and dream, 

wake and sleep,

tranqulity and turmoil,

it is a place of calmness wedged in real urbania.

i don't even know the name of this place,

i don't want to know it,

it could be anywhere,

it is timeless.

you're outside, and yet are covered and heated

you see and feel the elements as night falls.

protected, strong, the world has stopped

and it will only start again when i leave.

we can talk for hours, as we rebuild the galaxies,

we can not say a thing and the galaxies will still grow,

the world can wizz around us in whispers, shouts and crashes,

but we remain masters

untouchable.

only the ashtrays and the stars they project

are witnesses to our words, 

to our laughs, 

to our tears, 

to our angers and our fears, 

our angst, 

our hopes and deceptions,

dreams,

truths and deceptions.

6-12-07

our fingers were comforting each other so comfortably
there was a first no entry sign before
it flew by
the second had to come
and then the bullshit about keeping themselves warm
hyper nova
flying so high
a split second to crash back to the ground
falling so far down
truth
pain
doubt
confusion
solitude standing in a black box
eternity
truth clears the confusion
it's Dream's nemesis
you can't hide
no refuge
no dream
no hope
no peace
fight truth
for hope's sake

10 reasons to like Xmas
presents
great food
great for the kids
great wine
the hope of snow
the cosiness of long nights
the christmas carols
sharing
everybody is in it together
santa forever

10 reasons not to like Xmas
you don't get what you secretly wanted
you get fat
it's a family thing
can't really get drunk and stupid
it never fucking snows
do people really forgive ?
you spend too much bloody money
who really shares ?
santa is like god : everywhere at the same time but he doesn't fucking exist
it's all fake

03-12-07

speed of light
strange how for the time of a kiss, a thought, a breath, time stops.
for a moment, just one micro moment, you freeze that instant and extend it for ever.
this moment is called hope.